by sinky » Thu Apr 16, 2015 12:58 am
so i havent many close friends ,i find it hard to click with people more than superficially.i met a woman a few years ago who i wish i had never laid on eyes on,she tuned out to a swf.she basically copied everything and any friends i had she took essentially,she has a fake personna set up,the truth i much duller.i called out friendship quits .lately other people have unfriended me who are also friends with her.people whjo as far as i can think have no reason to do this to me.they are not important but i am feeling paranoid i guess.my best friend has a new man and only wanst to meet when he is at work at night which doesnt suit me,and makes me feel a bit like a filler,only good for when she has notnhing else on,she often gives me a bs reason not to see each other and then i see her with her new man .thats understandable and i am trying to have a thick skin but even that feels like its petering out.family i recently, cut off following some trauma,.i am so alone,i have a fab dh who works a lot.i am not feeling sorry for myself and am fully prepared to examine and see whats my fault in this,but i feel like me and friends dont work.its all a bit school girlish and i am in my mid thirties .i was thinking of joingin my local ica ,i would be the youngest but maybe thats what i need?is it a silly idea.ive tried bf groups,mummy groups,but its small place and the same people are everywhere and i say hello but its goes no further,it can feel embarrassing.am i a freak
so i havent many close friends ,i find it hard to click with people more than superficially.i met a woman a few years ago who i wish i had never laid on eyes on,she tuned out to a swf.she basically copied everything and any friends i had she took essentially,she has a fake personna set up,the truth i much duller.i called out friendship quits .lately other people have unfriended me who are also friends with her.people whjo as far as i can think have no reason to do this to me.they are not important but i am feeling paranoid i guess.my best friend has a new man and only wanst to meet when he is at work at night which doesnt suit me,and makes me feel a bit like a filler,only good for when she has notnhing else on,she often gives me a bs reason not to see each other and then i see her with her new man .thats understandable and i am trying to have a thick skin but even that feels like its petering out.family i recently, cut off following some trauma,.i am so alone,i have a fab dh who works a lot.i am not feeling sorry for myself and am fully prepared to examine and see whats my fault in this,but i feel like me and friends dont work.its all a bit school girlish and i am in my mid thirties .i was thinking of joingin my local ica ,i would be the youngest but maybe thats what i need?is it a silly idea.ive tried bf groups,mummy groups,but its small place and the same people are everywhere and i say hello but its goes no further,it can feel embarrassing.am i a freak